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Jesus Calling-Keep Your Eyes On Me!
I haven't ever really been a "fearful" person. I have somewhat prided myself in not really thinking about all the bad things that could happen in situations. Some would call it naive-I call it faith...placing my trust in the Lord and know he will guide me through. Even through the loss of a child I never really felt I went into over -protection mode with Wyatt. (which is a common thing that happens in our situation) Until a few weeks ago...I began having these "thoughts" these terrible images. They came at all hours of the day and sometimes even throughout the night when I was laying away or in my dreams/nightmares.
I didn't want to tell anyone I was having these thoughts. Thoughts about bed things happening to people I loved, getting into terrible situations, even history repeating itself in our lives...I knew they weren't from the Lord. I wanted so badly to control my mind...Mark began to ask what was wrong I knew I couldn't let the devil have a foothold.
My mom gifted me the "Jesus Calling" app a few months ago. It has been nothing but PERFECT everyday. It's almost one of those devotionals you are nervous to read because it's so right on EVERY time. LOL!
I talked to my mom about these feelings one morning. She gave her faith-filled, amazing, perfect motherly advice (the advice I pray I can give my children some day). Once I hung up the phone I began my daily routine-I opened the app...and read this:
"Keep your eyes on me! Waves of adversity are washing over you, and you feel tempted to give up. As your circumstances consume more and more of your attention, you are losing sight of Me. Yet I am with you always, holding you by your right hand. I am fully aware of your situation. Your gravest danger is worrying about tomorrow. If you try to carry tomorrow's burdens today, you will stagger under the load and eventually fall flat. You must discipline yourself to live within the boundaries of today. It is in the present moment that I walk close to you, helping you carry your burdens. Keep your focus on My Presence in the present. "
I am pretty sure I had to pick my jaw up from the floor. I mean, could that have been any more perfect? As a family we have had less t.v. time and more music time. We have kept all stations turned to the local Christian radio station at home, in the car, even while taking evening walks. We have bathed ourselves in prayer and tried to spend lots of time in the Bible. The Lord is good...ALL the time-no exceptions!
As this pregnancy comes to an end and another chapter of our life closes a new one opens. We will enter this with our FULL trust in the Lord and pray he prepare us to be equipt with the tools needed to handle each situation we encounter the way HE would want us to.
I pray if you are reading this and the devil has tried to get a foothold, tried to create fear in you....that you remember it's NOT from the Lord. Take control ask the Lord to fill you with his spirit!
I love the Jesus Calling devo.
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This post hits home for me because I get pictures in my head of bad things happening too - it's not bad necessarily if it reminds me to be careful of certain situations, but it is bad when it starts to make me worry over things I can't control! What a perfect devotional for what you were going through right then!
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