to trust Him more part 1:

This week I've been struggling. There has been alot I've been thinking about, internalizing, and processing. To say it's been easy would be lying. I've been struggling with trust issues for a while now. I hadn't really shared it with anybody, and I didn't plan to. I guess the Lord had another idea :) He does have a way of doing that.

Tuesday night I was a church and I get a text from Addie. "You doing ok love?" That was just the beginning of our conversation that night. She offered for us to talk and I quickly took her up on it. I told Addie what was going on and she could not have given me more perfect words that night. She came at just the right time, she really did. I'm thankful. I've heard this before but I have never taken it into consideration, and done something about it. I know that I'm struggling, but I've been avoiding the one thing I needed to do. Run straight into the arms of My Savior, the one who created me, cares about me, and loves me more than anybody else has and ever will.

Addie said this and it hit home; "You seriously have to bring yourself to the point of laying these things at the cross, getting away, and getting into the heart of God. That is the only way you can find shelter, hidden in the heart of God." She challenged me to pray whenever I have moments of silence, to turn off my music when I drive and pray. I need to open my heart to the one who loves me, and the one I have needed to completely turn to this entire time.

Addie texted me this verse and note yesterday evening. I almost cried reading it. 2nd Corinthians 5:14- The love of Christ controls us, because we know that one died for all, so all have died. "just breathe, everything is already taken care of". I'm so thankful for friends that speak into my life, challenge me and love me enough to care about me!

HE will fight for you!

Great Reminder:

One of the hardest things I'm learning. To be still, and let the Lord do the fighting.

On a total side note, I had this saved as a draft for yesterday. Last night, something happened, and it was a perfect reminder to me to be STILL, and let the Lord do the fighting!

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Wallet: Lost and Found

I mentioned yesterday that I had lost my wallet on Friday night at Starbucks. I realized it later that night, about 15 minutes after Starbucks/Target had closed :(. I was at church and needed something out of it, went to grab it, and it was gone! It was too dark to go back and look, and Target was closed.

Saturday morning, I wake up extra early, and called them 1st thing. The lady was very sweet but explained that they had found nothing at either place, but I was welcome to come by and look for myself.

Meanwhile, I called the bank and canceled my cards, and stopped by to order new ones. Kind of a hassle to be totally honest. I showed up and retraced my steps. I checked the parking lot, the lobby, Starbucks seating area, everywhere!! It was nowhere to be found. :( *Insert whining here*

But, before I had left the house that morning, my dad offered to pray with me. We prayed that I would be able to find it, and that nothing had gotten stolen. So, I thought of course we will find it. We prayed, and I thought it'll happen right away......wrong.

My dad reminded me of two stories from his past. The 1st one, was when he was a little boy. He and his father had lost an expensive tool in the woods (sledgehammer I think). They looked everywhere and couldn't find it. They didn't have the money to replace it either. They prayed that night that God would help them find it. The next morning, they went back out, and lone and behold, it was sitting up next to a tree, in plain sight, right by where they had looked before. Pretty cool huh?

The second story was similar. My brother had lost his knife when he was little. Obviously it was small, and it was fall-time, which meant finding a knife in our backyard would be next to impossible. It was small, dark, and the ground was covered in leaves. They searched everywhere that night, and nothing. They prayed hard that night, and the next morning after some searching they found it! Crazy!

So, Saturday morning, after all of my searching, and not finding, I was upset. I had canceled my cards, looked everywhere, and prayed alot. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.

After searching at Target, I had a crew meeting at Cold Stone from 10-12. I came home to do some chores, and had to run out to my car to grab my keys. THERE.IT.WAS.

Tucked away, between my seat, and the car door. It wasn't there when I checked before. Now it was! Crazy? Cool? Both I think!

Happy Monday,

Love,