to trust Him more part 1:

This week I've been struggling. There has been alot I've been thinking about, internalizing, and processing. To say it's been easy would be lying. I've been struggling with trust issues for a while now. I hadn't really shared it with anybody, and I didn't plan to. I guess the Lord had another idea :) He does have a way of doing that.

Tuesday night I was a church and I get a text from Addie. "You doing ok love?" That was just the beginning of our conversation that night. She offered for us to talk and I quickly took her up on it. I told Addie what was going on and she could not have given me more perfect words that night. She came at just the right time, she really did. I'm thankful. I've heard this before but I have never taken it into consideration, and done something about it. I know that I'm struggling, but I've been avoiding the one thing I needed to do. Run straight into the arms of My Savior, the one who created me, cares about me, and loves me more than anybody else has and ever will.

Addie said this and it hit home; "You seriously have to bring yourself to the point of laying these things at the cross, getting away, and getting into the heart of God. That is the only way you can find shelter, hidden in the heart of God." She challenged me to pray whenever I have moments of silence, to turn off my music when I drive and pray. I need to open my heart to the one who loves me, and the one I have needed to completely turn to this entire time.

Addie texted me this verse and note yesterday evening. I almost cried reading it. 2nd Corinthians 5:14- The love of Christ controls us, because we know that one died for all, so all have died. "just breathe, everything is already taken care of". I'm so thankful for friends that speak into my life, challenge me and love me enough to care about me!